When to try again?

Well, I've had many advise from many people.

The doctor who did my dilation & curettage (D&C) told me I could try again on my next cycle. Family and friends have different comments ranging from 3 to 6 months break. I personally think if my womb and body is looking good, I can try again whenever that will be.

I went back to the IVF clinic last week. Unfortunately the doctor who saw me seems very unconfident in what she was saying. She was frowning at the ultrasound screen and looking crossed. She said there was something in my womb but she doesnt know what it was. She said I might have to do another D&C to remove it so they can see what it is. Oh, how shocked I was and I honestly didn't believe her.

I was asked to wait while she confided in her colleagues. She came back to ask me to do a beta HCG test, which seems funny to me cos thats the blood test to see if someone is pregnant. They took my blood and asked me to come back later for the results. When we went back in the afternoon, they have not done the test. I decided I wasn't going to make another trip back, instead I made another appointment at a better looking new women's clinic.

I found out at Hanh Phuc Clinic that the doctor who saw me at the IVF clinic doesn't have O&G experiences. She may be good at IVF but doesn't know much about O&G and thus gave her no basis comments. I had a gynaecology examination and ultrasound and all turned out well. My womb was looking normal.

I actually learned not to trust the first doctors you see.

My period came heavy few days ago. We went back to the IVF clinic and thank God we get to see Dr Khanh, who has been more friendly and convincing than the other doctors so far. He did another ultrasound for me (even though I was bleeding), and consulted the main doctor, Dr Lan. Well, it seems that though my womb is looking normal, it isn't very pretty looking. I was asked to take a break from TTC for another month.

Well, that's good too. I'll definitely go for rock climbing then and lose some weights.

Why?

'Why' is such a common word to begin with. I bet you and I must have asked why questions a zillion times.

Surely there had been times when we ask why God allows certain things to happen. A while ago, one of those questions were asked in our ladies bible study and our cell leader directed us to this useful verse and this verse appeared again in yesterday's passage in Our Daily Bread.

'The secret things belong to the Lord our God'

Deuteronomy 29:29

It may not be for me to see

The meaning and the mystery

Of all that God has planned for me

Till 'afterward'!

In a world of mystery, it's a comfort to know the God who knows all things.

(Passage adapted from Our Daily Bread - October 28, 2011)

No Baby

It's been almost 3 months since I last wrote. I would have been 17 weeks pregnant by now...

Nope, no baby bumps. No more pregnancy symptoms.

I miscarried. At week 10. Not pregnant anymore.

God knows why I miscarried. Because I don't. At least not the real reason.

I could guess or play the blaming game but no one knows the actual reason.

So... we'll try again... when the time is right...